reprioritization

i'm in one of the pictures from the pmc
but someone's hand is in front of my face

since the ride i've fallen behind on eating sleeping and work

all of which go badly

you'd think i'd have learned better
by now
than to pour my heart and soul into something which behaves capriciously
and acts as if it hates me
even though i know deep down it actually lacks feelings

but no

it's never too late to start though

it's one thing to put insane hours in at work
still another to let that insanity claim the rest of your life too

guilty of both

the bags under my eyes
and the wretched performance at soccer
[sorry suz]
attest

but i did see a brilliant soccer match this week

and i did get some stuff to work

and the rest of the month portends just the kind of adventure i crave

so maybe i'd better cut myself off at work

and work on rediscovering all the things i used to like to do with my free time

i love and hate that
the possibilities ahead are wondrous even if the ones already wasted depress

on the bright side
my hair is bright fucking orange for another three days