on futility, number 14

by r | 07 06 2008 20 59 50

i didn't work that much this weekend
billed a total of nine hours over two days
but it was enough that i didn't really feel like
i slacked off enough
and at the same time don't feel like i got anything
done

of course part of that is a function of stuff not working
or in this case not working well enough
not knowing what's wrong exactly
or having the ability to fix it
eats at you

so even when you leave work
because you don't know what to do
you spend the rest of the time trying to figure it out anyway
not actively mind you
but it's in the back of your mind

so monday brings more work
more banging my head against the wall

but at least i'm not rested for it

i'm an idiot